Poise and Rationality

This is the song. It first came out in 2003 and was one of the best singles by the Ataris from their album So Long, Astoria.

In This Diary - The Ataris

Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
And not a spoken feeling.
I’m knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
And listening to 80’s songs;
Quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it…

Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you’ll finally get it right.

Breaking into hotel swimming pools,
And wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top’s singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in parking lots,
Illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky.
2015 riverside, it’s time to say, "goodbye."
Get on the bus, it’s time to go.

Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart,
And eventually you’ll finally get it right.

Bored. This was going to be a tagged mission but I am doing it before she tags me, o’ wretched Vanessa. xD

Let’s begin the… listing
In NO particular order, mind you.

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1. Ian Somerhalder - Boone of LOST Season I and a bit of II…

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I… can’t… believe… they  had to kill off the hottest guy on the show. I mean… GOSH. This guy is just sexy, LOOK at him. Messy brown hair, fit body, dreamy eyes, lovely smile… man, he makes me swoon. Not to mention he was also very, very, scrumptious-like in the horror movie Pulse.

2. Josh Holloway - Sawyer of Lost since Season I

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He is super-duperly deliciously amazingly fantastically unbelievably one of the sexiest TV show actors… EVER! He is basically the person I drool at now when watching Lost ever since Boone died. I mean, look at him. He’s definitely got that mysterious, bad boy look to him, but his dimple completely betrays that fact. He is… SEXY. fullstop. end of story.

3. Josh Duhamel - Danny of Las Vegas since …. forever. //Main Character

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You have to watch Las Vegas because of this guy. Okay, let’s forget the fact that he had/s some thing going on with Fergalicious, and yeah, all that. He’s hot. Typical guy next door look, but all the better, no?

4. Michael Weatherly - Tony of NCIS since Season I //Main Character

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Okay, not SMOKING, but hey he’s got the charms. Especially with his girl-crazy, always want to be the best attitude he potrays in NCIS. He gets your attention, no doubt. One of the reasons why I watch NCIS. It’s not just a typical crime investigation show, it’s actually got a lot of light humor and a very cool rocker chick that wears blue lipsticks and a spiderweb tattoo on the block. And it’s got Michael

5. Ryan Carnes - Justin of Desperate Housewives since Season I

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Okay, I know, my TV show choices are quite limited but don’t blame me! I don’t watch a lot of TV okay… Anywho, this guy doesn’t appear much on DH but he is pretty high up my list. When you look at him closely enough. He’s got all the sexiness a guy should need… minus the lack of messy hair which I prefer more…

6. Milo Ventimiglia - Peter of Heroes…?

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I don’t watch this show but whatever

7. Wentworth Miller - Michael of Prison Break all seasons//Main Character

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Oh gosh, now he’s the cool guy… tattoos = HOT.
He makes me go ‘aaaaaaaaah!’ I love watching Prison Break it’s real intense. This guy is REALLY great as Michael Scofield.

8. Adam Brody - Seth of the O.C in all seasons//Main Character

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The cutest nerd ever created in the life of TV. He rocks my socks! WHOO. I love the bit when he gets drunk and rolls over the car and goes "Shh, we’re in stealth" to his dad. Haha.

9. Jensen Ackles - Matthew of Supernatural since Season I//Main Character

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Cool. I couldn’t choose between him and Jared, both who acts as the main characters of the TV show Supernatural… but I ended up choosing this guy instead… don’t really know why. Something about him intrigues me.

10. Jared Padalecki - Sam of Supernatural// Main Character

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Hahahaha yes, kill me. I inserted him in finally, after not being able to think of any others that particularly interests me. Tom Welling was way too overrated, and everyone else were actors from the big screens. Oh, bother. So this guy. Long shaggy hair. I like

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Oh and now I would like to apologise for my stupidity of excluding this one very very delicious actor off my ‘Sexiest Actors’ tag.

…. Colin Farrell. I KNOW! Anyway, I’m adding him now

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ARGH he’s so good-lookingly good looking!

Ija: Moi…moi…
Me: Ijaaaa
Ija: I feel like a cantonese serial
Me: LOL why?
Ija: Always calling moi moi!!!

Me: Your not hairy!
Jarrod: I’m hairy at places you don’t wanna know about.

Nin: I wonder who came up with the word ’fat’… you’re so fat….
Me: ….You’re so lipid…

San: You self loving piece of crap..
Me: Proud of it
San:… yer.. you’re proud of your own crap?

Jarrod: Emo chest hair… parted to the side!

Mon: Mr. Gui, San Eu just showed me his middle finger!
Mr. Gui: What, this one ah? *shows her his middle finger*
All: BAHAHAHAHAH!

Mus: OII! Why can’t you BE NICE TO ME?!!?!

Ija: I miss you like every hair that has drop and shaven from my adult life. That’s a hell lot of hair… I would know.

Mus: I’M SORRY CELINE.. I’m not being nice to you…
Me: -_-

Wu Shen: My ass hurts…
Me: Why? What happened?
Wu Shen: I dunno.. it just does..

Mr. Smith: Don’t ROLL your eyes at me, Celine…
Me: *rolls my eyes*
Mr. Smith: .. fine.

[During art class]
Yu-me: Excuse me, sir, Ms. Alford ask me to get your balls.
Me: *Looks stunned at Tammy and Faridah. Bursts out giggling.
Yu-Me: The silver balls… Why are they laughing??
Mr. Delmotte: *grins* I dunno, Yu-me..

Iman: Dude, I dreamt that god was a blue plasticine…

Mom: Neh, she wants to watch what KOMPLOT la.. what JAGUNG la…
Me: JAGUNG!? its HUJAN!

Me: Stop messing with my hair!
Jarrod: Well stop having hair then! Grow some facial hair I can mess with!

Me: FOR GODS SAKE IM NOT THAT DUMB!
Jarrod: No. You’re not… Just lagging…

John: Look at me I’m a gay rempit!
Me: No, you’re just an english TRYING to be a gay rempit

Wan: Yeah, we can’t touch or eat pork…
Me: *looks distressed* OH MY GOD! tht means you can’t touch ME coz I eat pork! *skids to the other side of the alley*
Wan: aiyooo no la..

*about a black gal*
Me: - he took my face and went "MY NIGGA!" and she was RIGHT there! Iman was like OH SHIT!
guys: HAHAHA
Me: bahaha she had earphones on so i dunnoo laaa
vince: earphones? were they black so they can blend with her face color?
rest of us: DUDE! u are so frikin mean!  HAHAHHAHA
vince: like. oh my god her ears are bleeding!

Me: *yawn!*
Mitch: I don’t know what just happened..
Me: I yawned!
Mitch: Oh.. I thought you were singing…

Maria: *points at Mus’s shoelace with weed patterns on it* That’s weed!
Mus: What? This not weed. This CRRistmas TRRee!

Wan: Some people can think… some people can’t.

Mus: Stop smiling with your eyes closed!
Me: Stop farting with your butt closed!

KyuHo: Won’t it be ironic if you die in your living room?
Everyone: LOL
*10 seconds later*
John:… why?

Mus: He looks like a dying malay fish

Iman: He’s such a dick, bro… He’s such a foreskin!

Fad: Kenape xtido dik celine?
Me: coz i… am not sleeping.
Fad: Cantik betol alasan

Louise: Which Wan?
Me: That one..
Louise: That Wan?
Louise&Me:…BAHHAHHAHHA

Me: What if we don’t have any S’s?
Auntie Anna: Then we would be in deeeep shit.

Wan: Moron 5!… The five morons…
Louise: -_-

Lou: I dunno what to call shim!
Me: Oh OH I KNOW!! KAK BANG!
Lou: …BANG KAK? Bengkak!
Us: LOL!
Lou: Bengkak di mana?? Bengkak kat tetek!
Me: HAHHAHHA… bengkak di bawah!
*few days later. Mus refering to this*
Mus: Both also true….

Me: My penis is SO HARD ROCK! xD

Mommy: *after thanking everybody for planning her surprise birthday* May all of you be well and happy!
Me, Lou & Birdy: *places our hands together*… Saddhu, saddhu, saddhu

Dad: See, there’s a lot of people who wake up before 8!
Me: Yeah… but there’s a lot more people who don’t.

Louise: Oh wow, it says Rosak.

Me: *at karaoke* "You’re tryna be cool,
but you look like a fool to meee" *turns to looks at Mus*
Mus: EH??….. "telll meeee, why you have to go and—"

Jarrod: you know what "ngee" means?
me: its hello in my language!
jarrod: no that’s ngeh. or ngah. ngee is the sound you make when you hug someone. *hugs himself*.. NGEE!
me: LMAO
ija: girl.. chill…

Me: *pulls chair away from Jarrod and sits next to Wu* I shall sit next to the guy who rocks.
Wu: *turns to Jarrod*… You don’t rock.

Ari: Or you can jump off from on top of your appartment into the pool
Me: That’s suicide.
Ari: NoO, it’s Malaysian Book of Records.

Per: I’m so gay, dude. Don’t have any girlfriend.
Me: That’s not gay, that’s just living life.

Me: Now everytime I see her, I see that guy.
Erin: ish…
Me: mata sakit
Erin: pakai spek la.

Per: Tummy trim.
Me: What the?
Per: Its a type of product that slims ur tummy…
Me:…. -_-

Mom: No, she needs pesticide… coz she’s a pest.

Per: Just call me Bond… Tapir Bond.

Mom: Aiya, he can go fly kite.

San: Sotong gemok
Me: Kucing hitam.
San: So racist….

mus: serious… his forehead….omg..u can put 24 inch mega flat screen there..and his lips look like folded donuts

me: *says WHY!!?? in 5 languages*
mus: ulu ulu bin bin ki huii!!!??
me: wtf?
mus: that’s my honolulu language.

su: your head is so small!
jake: i know my head is so small. its small because i don’t need big brains. because im white.

Scott: My name is Frikie

*mus prods my nose with 2 fingers*
Mus: WOW it’s getting weirder & weirder! *turns to jarrod* Try to touch it with two fingers!
Jarrod: *looks at Mus’s fingers* I hope those two fingers haven’t gone to 2nd base.
Me: *scrunches my face* Awghhh…!!
Jarrod: [very quickly] Pussynose. *turns to pay waitress*

Jarrod: Yeah, Ija used to be skinny… and then he let it out.

Me: Who sang that song?
Mom: A negro leh..
Me: That helps.
Mom: XD

Mom: OMG I forgot to wear my denture!

KenSien: *Forced to give a speech on the moon*…. the MOON. ….is smaller than Earth.
Us: Oh, really!?

Ija: tape your boob aite…so they’ll think you’re a guy in case u mosh.

Okay, the title isn’t really connected that much to the topic. But it is… in a way… relevant. Because music is growing and becoming more relative to people of our ages now. It’s becoming more of a routine than an interest; music is soon going the be… constant therapy for the majority of us, soon.
Spent the whole night yesterday in the silent confinements of my bedroom, with three and-a-bit-of-a-four walls staring my down, pondering on the likes of parent-children issues.

They will never, ever end, will they? I will confess that this post will be quite obviously biased as I will be writing from a prespective of the "children". But this is my blog and I can say whatever I want.

Because the old are old, they are mainly right and will claim to be much, much more experienced than the young because of the I-have-been-through-your-age idea. Despite the many revealed occasions of old people spending their life learning and finally lying on their deathbed realizing they haven’t learnt enough at all.
Because the young are young, they live in a totally different, changing world to the old, leading to new, bizarre thoughts and behavior which would be seen [mostly to the old] as wrong. A few things both sides fail to see:

-They are never always right.
-They are both equally stubborn
-They both don’t always listen
-They both want what they want most of the time
-Age should never be used as an excuse; young people saying young needs to see the world and explore more and the old people saying they know better because they are older… these never work.

But let’s face it: Being a teenager of today is no more the déjà vu of an older mind’s perspective, no matter how they argue that it is the same. The things people of our age know about, the older ones wouldn’t have heard about. So they can’t exactly say they know better. The older people know about things that we have never and probably will never see again… so we can’t say they don’t know anything either. See? It’s evenly spread out nowadays… knowledge. whether it be big or small.

Let’s compare. If them older peeps were rich kids, they were kept in the house and followed around by guards while waiting to be happily betrothed. They went to tea parties, attended cocktail parties, learned to waltz or play the piano. They don’t mix with the lower kids. Rich kids now are more freewilled, [not always a good thing, if I may say] given more chances to go to places of their own choice, they can make their own decisions [not always right ones] and allowed to club and get drunk and buy branded things like there is no tomorrow. They mingle with the lower class more often, too, which is a good thing, I suppose. The older rich people will look down at the older poor people, but their rich children might be best friends with poor kids, just because they happen to share same interests. There is the diversity right there. I’ve seen it. With older people, appearance is important.

To the younger ones, it’s the way we think alike. Screw class. Screw money. Screw looks. Screw race/religion/politics/level of education. If we like the same things, we’re friends. If anyone of our age judge people through those things, they’re too sombong to mix with us. It’s as simple as that.
And I find it so hilarious when our parents say "You’re to young to figure out who you really are. You’re just not smart enough yet." & claim that they know better. It takes someone to understand himself before anyone else can, so how does THAT theory work?

If you were a poor kid or an independent kid from years back, you would study your butt off; if not study, then get drugged and rotten; if not, then it’s workworkwork. They wouldn’t bother or couldn’t be mixing with richer kids to save their neck. They tended to appreciate luck a lot more. They either become anti-social or too sociable [in a very bad way]. It was like a written out life, just like the rich, I suppose. But poor/independent kids from now tend to end up… just living life like nothing is a big deal. It’s a happy go lucky situation, most accept their stupid fate. They either strive for a goal impossible to reach or they just give up and work at any job they can find. They go to free concerts, they go to cheap stalls for food, they hitchhike, they stick onto someone passing through the barrier at an MRT station so they can enter free. Some stay in school, some don’t. They could seek help from richer friends, perhaps. If they have lots of friends, they could snake their way through being young and hopeless to young and employed, even. They would get into a band, take up an instrument to learn and maybe earn money that way, which can be easily done. If you can’t get your band to perform gigs, then play on the streets and earn some coins. I had a friend who did that once and it worked.

You see what I’m trying to say? Life now is so not following the straightness of before. Hell no. The world is screwing up, more and more people are rebelling against the rules of life [which are what?], rebelling against what people want from them, and just doing things they feel is what they want. Majority of people nowadays would feel much more confident to have a solid base of friends and family to share life with than to have a solid set out life and career. It’s becoming more and more important now to just enjoy, though it has its negatives, than to make life a survival plan. If life was going to get worse as years come, might as well enjoy it right? It is no wonder why it’s driving older people insane. They want the best for the young because of that whole pressuring idea of children-are-our-future. It’s slogans like those that really stops a child from being a child.
And they tell us not to grow up too fast? Pah. Irony big time. And I’m not sure older generations particularly like the idea of us being their future. I don’t blame them, really.

Sure, they were teens once, sure they had their crazy share of fun and extreme night outs but I really disagree to how they always have in mind that it’s the same with us. It is not the same, and whether they believe it or not, we really do not see things the way they did before. Our minds are more expanded, look at the increasing rate of gays coming out of the closet and guys wearing skinny jeans and girls doing things that seem manly. Hello? Are older people sleeping every night on their version of teenage years or something?

We have technology now, we have a wider range of activities to launch ourselves upon, a wider media to influence us, a wider base of people who opens our eyes and in a way, shape us, and given much more extreme interests, leading to a much more adventurous, much more in depth atittude towards something we are interested in. When bands performed before, they were GODLY, but now more and more bands are actually becoming less worshipped but taken in more as part of the crowd. They mingle around a lot, they refer to themselves less as stars but more as playing for the people.

I guess it sucks that we have to end up thinking that only people like John Lennon or Bob Marley can truly understand how we feel, because the whole point of parents are to try to get them to understand but if your parents aren’t exactly the most willing to change their perspective of what’s right or wrong for you… that’ll be hard. I heard parents saying "This is how I’ve been teaching for so many years, this is how I have been thinking, and it has always led to good consequences, so therefore I am always right."
What if - for once - it doesn’t work any more? What if they are wrong for once in their life?
To me, it’s not about giving us a chance to be right or to be clever but it’s just the chance for them to open up their narrow slit eyes which they seem to want to clam tight shut [just as their reference to our ears] and kind of accept what the world is becoming?

We are willing to accept the screw ups of life, and to me, if it takes us to making wrong decisions on the way while doing so, I wouldn’t mind one bit. Nothing is going to be golden and neat and tidy anymore in this world, and fair judgement can only go so far. If I have accepted that idea of life [so far anyway, I am still young], then shouldn’t they?

I mean it will be us growing old in it, soon, won’t it?

What would you do if you ruled the world? Here is 5 things I would do. Well, of course I would do more but I don’t want to list everything down. Here’s just the five majors.
PS: Vanessa, you’re tagged.

1. No Money, No Cry & No governments.
Yes, it’s rather cliché but hey, what the hell do we make from money? Branded stuffs can still be made without money; paper, too. ANYTHING that we use nowadays technically can still be gained without money. When everything is free, everything can be used. There’ll be shortages on things, sure, on occasions, but… if the stone ages could live through it, we can too, right? Imagine… you run out of credit, just go down to the shop and take a card to top up. That’s. Brilliant. You’re hungry. Just walk into a restaurant and order food. Amazing. You need a prom dress, just go grab a dress you like. Omg, imagine the simpleness of it all. Just ace. There’ll be no boycotts in some countries and exploitation because countries wouldn’t be favoured by the amount of money they give to import stocks from other nations. Everything would be given out equally because the price is equal.. priceless. And without governments, there won’t be any corruption. Instead we will have those town leaders, a man who takes care of his own village/state and one specific, trustworthy police force to keep the nation in control.

2. Music Lessons
I would make schools that will teach people history and stories of music. It would be a music/social school. The schools would teach people to socialize and still be a good person. AND be musically inclined. It would be.. one week of normal school, then one week of this school. Then back to normal school. And back to this school. The students would go out on the streets for practical courses to perform. Entertain people. Other practical courses will have to be to attend gigs or making music if attending the gig can’t be possible. Damn… the life…

3. Untie the knot
Sounds crazy, but I will ban marriage. Hello? Take a look at the world now. Is it working? Not all the time. And a lot of couples who are together without a marriage vow seem to last longer than those who do. Not all, but a lot. Last time, marriage was seen as a key to start a family and to reside together and to be together through sickness and all that. If people are doing that already even without tying the knot, I don’t see the point in marriage at all nowadays. You can still buy rings and all that… but… I find it, sad to say, a pointless thing now.

4. Every household holds one car only.
Sorry. But I would take away all the extra cars from those richies and give them to those deprived of cars. Every household will have one car only. And a bicycle. And a motorcycle. That’s about it. People have to stay healthy and walk. Cycle. This would decrease pollution, too. Amazing.

5. Everywhere would be Malaysia
Uhhuh. My final utmost wish. Every nation would undergo the Mamak culture. I would want to feel the simple life of Malaysia in every country I go to. I want to hear Indian, Malay and Chinese language everywhere I go, plus the other nation’s own specific native language [I wouldn't ban thattt]. I want to be able to walk out in my slippers and shorts late at night and tapow hokkien mee coz’ I’m hungry. Yeah.

Woohoo. That’s all from me. If I ruled the world…

I think it is time for me to introduce these stupid, amazing people on my page. If people want to know about me, they have to know my friends, too.

I will introduce all my close friends one by one. Let’s start.

Louise. Okay, I cheat here. She shares blood relation to me, is my cousin, but whatever, you know? If I was to write down EVERYTHING about me and her, it’s not going to be enough on just one blog. Maybe a book? She has acted as a very, very close friend these few years. When we were younger, we never really shared something. No, she used to bully me, this girl. But I still remember those times we run UP Carrefour’s "Down" escalators, times when you stole my bag and I would cry and you’d give it back to me along with a candy if you managed to steal one from the fridge. Times we laughed behind our aunties’ backs [hehe] and when we hid under Uncle Phillip’s blanket to scare your brother as he came out of the shower. I disliked you at times, I am honest. Hehe. But then again, cousin-wars were found in every part of our family, ey? Louise is a year older than me, and she makes me smile. She makes me cry, and that’s only when I see her cry, or when she tells me off over being stupid. Whenever I have no one else to turn to, I’ll find her; she’s usually the last person I’ll look for to find coz’ I know she faces problems herself. But she’s always on my list. And I am on hers, too, and similarly, usually one of the lasts. We speak for hours on the phone and never get sick of it. We sms until our credit dies and fights on who should call who. We laugh at stupidest things. She reminds me to never dwell on the past. But we do think up on inside jokes from a few months back and then laugh our heads off about it, high-fiving each other, leaving the rest of the gang completely oblivious to what we’re laughing about. We love to speak Cantonese in the presence of people we don’t like or when we don’t want to be heard. She scares the shit out of me when she sends me SMSes like "I’ve been abandonned". Jesus Christ, dude. She has the most annoying habit of sending me three different smses in a time span of a minute. Save your bliddin’ credit la, woman! I sometimes worry about the way she says she wants to leave her house… but I trust in her to make the right decisions. She’s no boy-magnet, despite what a lot of people think. Yeah, that’s my dramaqueen of a cousin. Love this girl.
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Birdy. I cheat again! I’m sorry! But yes. Cousin number two. I hardly ever see this girl, we hardly ever SMS, but I know she is definitely someone I can look for if I ever break down one day. She got her name from a childhood memory, when she very distinctively looked like Tweety Bird. Hehe. Secret exposed. We liked talking about boobs, and fatness. She molests me any chance she gets. She gives the most bone-crushing hugs ever. She is hopeless at playing drums, but it amuses me to watch. And her mom is sure to give advice, too, which is funky. Birdy is two years older than me. She told me off for not being honest with my mother the last time, and it was that second that I knew she was going to be there for me during my ups and downs. Chinese New Year in her house was unforgettable, the best sleepover I ever had. I’ll ignore the aftermath hehe. Oh yes, and your birthday of 2007 is still fresh in my head, girl! You still have yet to see the video of it. HAHA! I just wish I could talk with her more. Love you, laksa.
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Jarrod. He calls me Spungey. He’s from Sarawak [yes, yes, where Radhi OAG came from, we know!]. I’ve known him for exactly a year and four months. I think? Haha! Oh, I don’t see him a lot, and most of our strong friendship has evolved in our conversations online. He, like me, shares a passion in writing, and our topics of discussion can be endless. He has been mistaken as emo, a girl and a malay, before. Exactly like me. Not a girl but a boy, of course. HAHA! The first time I met him was at One Utama, when we had met to do Free Hugx. Boy, what a memory. Hugging is our hobby. We don’t share all our secrets because we respect the secrets we each have… though it gets slightly unnerving the way he hides a little TOO much things, maybe. But maybe I do the same? Ahha. This boy is as random as random can get, but maybe sometimes he tries a little too hard to be hyperactive. He likes to be very precise with the things he says and doesn’t like making mistakes. He’s got to learn to chill just a liiittlee bit. He is so into music it’s unbelievable, and he wants to be a teacher. A Real teacher, mind you, not those… weirdos we have nowadays. We are often mistaken to be siblings, we have had some ’same thoughts’ moments, which we share a love-hate relationship towards. He keeps me updated on his 3 year old… friend? Haha, hey who is Nana to you? Jarrod is the one non-relative guy who’s witnessed my mom scolding me over serious things, and still kept an encouraging smile on his face. His mom is relatively similar to mine in some ways, which helps. He was there, on the phone or in person or online, when I needed someone the most, and he’s the type that won’t mind giving long hugs. Hey, none of my close friends mind that at all. We probably won’t be able to share as much time together as we’d hope, but honestly, I’ve loved every second we have shared. Yay.
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Mus. This guy… where, oh where do I start? The first time I saw this guy’s name… even KNEW he existed… was when I was looking at the picture of Me, Jarrod and Nindy on Jarrod’s page and saw Mus commenting on it. And the first time I heard his voice was on the phone. And the first time I saw him was in The Curve where he was LATE for Free Hugs No.2. Stupid. This guy… we have never shared that "Oh i’m here for you no matter what" moments, but I just know - KNOW - that if one day I am abandonned in the middle of a street with no one to reach out to, he will come and pick me up. Haha, no it’s not because he has a car! Of course, he’ll be about… half an hour late! This guy is constantly late for everything. He suffers from insomnia though he doesn’t admite it. He used to have a mohawk. He’s in Lim Kok Wing College, studying on how to design digital cartoon animations. I think. Mus is the only guy who is willing to challenge my mom - and like it - to Scrabble. He likes to bow. He laughs funny. He doesn’t eat lunch, but eats dinner. He likes to speak Japanese. He wears female wigs to annoy us. He, like me, plays the drums! I will never forget our running around in malls trying to tickle each other, and the piggy back rides at Sunburst Festival. The hugs, the shoeballing, the hairclapping He’s been the most quiet in our gang, but when he talks, oh my god he talks. He surprisingly always knows when I’m down even when I have the biggest grin on my face. Mus gets annoyed at very little things sometimes, in my opinion, and there were times when me and Louise REALLY felt like punching his head, but that’s because we love him. WHEN those times were, I won’t say. he calls me Ketam, for reasons why, I never know. He plays baseball and paintball and he has weird phobias of doctor check ups. Leaving your shoulder dislocated is kind of… er… STUPID, Mus! He is one of my most gullible friends ever, he can fall for anything, I swear. But Mus is smart, and makes good judgement over things that I face problems with. He’s always there to back me up whenever I need some advice.
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Ija. The father of the family, but the one I always have to keep tailing after, too! I act as his wake-up call when he needs someone to call him to wake him up to continue working, I love slapping his belly, and he was there for me when I was low, low, low, low. He laughs funny, and he moshes funny. He has a DAMN LOUD VOICE, and the things he says can reallllyyy crack you up. Man, Ija’s such a clown He’s so young for his age it’s unbelievable and he is LAZY! Budak ni. Hhahahaha, yes I know how old he is. We both LOVE chocolate, as in absolutely LOVE chocolate. He calls me Moimoi and tells me I’m his smile machine because I make him smile when he’s feeling grey. Aww. He loves my moms chicken pie, and he loves food. His energy level whenever he’s with us is always 100% except when he was feeling sick the past few outings. The bracelet I got him looks good on his wrist and his moustache always makes me laugh. Like a walrus sifu! Hehe! Like Birdy, I wish I could spend more time with this dude, but hey he’s gotta work you know? Papa Ija, you the man!
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San. Ahhhh…. San! Kucing. Meow. He calls me Sotong gemuk. And called me racist when I call him Kucing Hitam. He loves to play pranks on me by calling me and saying he’s from the immigration. He loves complaining about his work. He’s a very down-to-earth person, even though he has been stupid and lost in his head a few months back. Ahem ahem. This guy is very sensitive, he’s not someone to mess with. He is very protective over the things he loves, and that includes his friends. I NEVER get to see this gay boy. But when I do… it’s FUN!!! We have a constant war going on which cracks my mom up. He stops me from eating chocolates but then Mus and him goes to buy a packet of chocolates for my mom on her birthday. Idiotic la really. I like playing with his long hair, he looks like Barbie. He drives a Kancil with a turbo engine which sounds hilarious when he’s driving behind Mus’s big lorry because you think it’s Mus’s car making that noise and then you see the small white car strolling on behind it. HAHAHA I will never forget that moment. Again, a dude I can depend on, and was there to advice me when I wasn’t feeling my best. AND when my computer was all cacat. Hehe.
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Deepti. She hardly hangs out with me, except for school days, but that doesn’t erase the fact that I have known her since I stepped into the classrooms of my school. She cracks me up with her I-couldn’t-care-less comments and pervy jokes, and blunt opinions. I’ve fought with her, a few times, but hey, that’s what brings us closer. I could actually say she’s never actually turned her back against me for STUPID things. I trust her with my secrets that’s for sure, she’s been there for me through hard times even when it’s just a hug or some words of advice. This chick knows how to deal with things, so don’t mess =P She’s crazy about photography and she knows her shit when it comes to music. She’s smart as hell, too.
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Iman. Oh the freshest blood of my family hahaha! My long lost abang kembar, this guy is my reminder of why I should become a smart person. No offence. HAHAHA. He lives on cigarettes, ska music and girls. He annoys me 75% of the time. He’s made me so angry, I felt like walking over to his house and punching him in the balls so hard he’d never feel pain quite like that again. Yes. That’s why I love this boy so much. It takes him 5 minutes to get a joke. We share the same birthday, 9th Of October. We share almost the same hairstyle, except I use wax and he doesn’t use shampoo. We love the same type of music. We both broke our collar bones when we were little. We both had to change our biological names because it was spiritually "too heavy" for us and causing us to get sick. We share the same moms and sisters. I can never remember his brothers’ names. He always calls me when he’s in the midst of a relationship crisis, and when I advice him, he never listens but after the same thing he goes "Damn, you were right.". I’ve given up saying "I told you so". We’ve heard each other cry, talked about the most deepest worries in our heads, but we somehow know not to say EVERYTHING and resolve things with just a tight, reassuring hug. This boy is smart, but he doesn’t put effort in the things he does. He’s so LAZY! He makes me laugh over the randomest things, and vice versa. I wish he can see how much potential he has inside him. He dreams of god in the form of blue plasticine. He has fantasies over blue people. I swear. He writes random songs about weed. he used to live in South Africa. The first time I spoke to him was when we were walking to our first PE class of the year together. And then… it all just fell into place He can do the coolest "Itik" impersonation with his lips. I love this almost-relative guy, and I hope we can stick together this way as long as possible, yaw.
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Wu. Shen! Hahahaha! Oh dear, I see this guy once in a blue moon, seriously which reallllyyyy sucks. He’s the guy to turn to when you want to hear a gentle voice because seriously… he has the gentlest voice ever. Mister Blur number one, he cracks you up by just looking at you. He is currently undergoing self-restrain from cigs, which is COOL. Haha I love to watch him suffer having to roll his cigs all the time. Hehe! We have never shared those ‘close moments’ before, but I am honest when I say "I missed you!" when I see him. He is just an amazing person to have around, makes you laugh, and something about him makes me know I can give him a call if anything, anything goes wrong. He loves to dance funny, and sing old famous songs. When he realizes something it’s like as though he’s found a new country. He gets amused easily.
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Every single one of these guys/girls have been there for me at a certain point of my life. I cherish them all like an unbreakable chain of memory.
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Another tag from that girl and I am going to scream. But there’s another list… Sigh. Again, if you want to check out my tagger’s choice of Top 15 Sexiest Men on The Big Screens go to http://www.the-fly-saviour.blogspot.com/ to see her choice of hunkadelics.

So. Without further ado, once again in no particular order… my list.

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1. Johnny Depp – My Willy Wonka

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All his movies never fail to impress me. He is an actor. Full stop. Forever seen with his wavy hair, and occasionally with a hat and thick rimmed glasses, his looks never, ever bore me. Did you know every time he gets a script for a movie, he would just sit down and ponder which characters will inspire him to morph into his own personal character? For example, as Jack Sparrow, he sat himself down and stole the personalities and attitudes of French cartoon skunk, Pepe le Pew and Mick Jagger of the Rolling Stones. I just stare in disbelief at people who dislike Johnny Depp, no offense.

2. Jake Gyllenhaal – He’s not gay/Donnie Darko

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Okay, so what if he’s got a hairy chest, that’s not the point. I was especially attracted to his character in Brokeback Mountain, and his acting career has been successful. I loved him in the Day After Tomorrow as well.

3. Heath Ledger – I never get sick staring at him/Lord of MY town

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An unbelievably sad loss to the world of the big screens. Always tending to play the roles of wild, rebellious or confused individuals, Heath Ledger won a lot of girls’ hearts. Loved, loved, loved! him in 10 Things I Hate About You and Lords of Dogtown. Casanova… he is Casanova. Anytime of any day.

4. Ryan Gosling – Be my Noah, please?

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Need I say more? Honestly, it was his role as Noah in The Notebook that completely swept me off my feet. With a laid-back attitude and a look of a faraway dream, Ryan Gosling sooo deserves a spot in this list.

5. Jon Foster – Stay Alive

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I only watch that movie for him, I swear.

6. Oliver James – Amazing vocals/He is what a girl wants

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No, I’m not being random. He starred in the Amanda Byrnes film “What A Girl Wants” and also Hilary Duff’s “Raise Your Voice”. Check out his songs “Half Life” & “Long Time Coming”… typical pop songs I guess but his voice… *stops hyperventilating*. Despite my mate, Vanessa’s, comment on him using too much hair gel… I don’t give a hoot. He’s tall, he’s built to be hugged, and oh gosh, his eyes. A typical teenage crush.

7. Jonathan Rhys Meyer – Hottest Rockstar daddy role anyone has ever played

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Seen him in August Rush, where he plays the Rockstar and an unaware father of a music genius? Leather jacket, guitar slung over his shoulder, passionate about music, humming to ‘Moondance’? Well, I have. He is every girl’s dream. Okay maybe not every girl. But… I’m one of those who dream of him. Argh, he makes me weak in the knees. His eyes!
Note to my friend: NO, Jarrod, he does not look like Wu Shen. Only the lips. xD

8. Chris Evans – On fire

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He’s a hunk, he’s blonde [Haha, Vanessa] and he was given a role in a film to catch on fire. Everything fits. Sexy.

9. Leonardo Dicaprio – Rose should’ve died

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Yes, yes, kill me for picking such an overrated choice. But heck. He was luscious in “The Beach”, considering he was half naked most of the time during the film. And he was tanned. Nice. Watching him go crazy was a very uncanny turn-on. Horny moment. Oops.

10. Sascha Radetsky – Center Stage?

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The only movie I’ve seen him in was “Center Stage” and I yearn for more!

11. Channing Tatum – *drooling unstoppably*

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Yeah, I heard he’s bisexual, but that’s hot… in his case. I love the way he talks. He mumbles in that innocent, frustrated way. Never knew he could dance! I was staring throughout that ten minute scene of which he reappears in Step Up 2. Not only is he an underwear model, he’s an actor and a dancer. Potentially active-much! I hate Amanda Byrnes for that scene at the kissing booth. And I also hate her for the boat scene with Oliver James. But let’s not get personal, shall we?

12. Will Smith

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He’s made it sooo far in the acting business; I have to salute to him. Amazingly, he still finds time for his family which makes him what every lady should look for. And he makes me laugh. Always with a cool character and easy, laidback attitude, he’s just downright lovable.

13. Antonio Banderas – Take my lead, puss in boots.

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He’s of Latin blood, he played Zorro and he can dance. He has an accent that sends you flying. Puss in Boots is a friggin’ cat and I love him for more than just cuteness. Yeah, so what if Banderas seems too old to be on my list? Looking that good at his age is something you got to love him for.

14. Wes Bentley – American hottie?

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Ooo, the fire in his eyes. Just look at him. He’s sinister-looking, a bit too lanky, but that’s how I found him gorgeous in the first place. Strange how weirdos turn girls on faster, eh? [Referring to his role in American Beauty, of course]

15. Jude Law – Accent. Eyes. Height. Everything.

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Oh, hell yes, I saved him for last. SEXGOD. Oh god, I absolutely love watching this guy act… even hearing his voice alone in “A Series of Unfortunate Events” was worthwhile. He was ever so attractive as Mr. Napkin, wasn’t he? He leaves you hating the actress that shared a kiss with him.

Okay. What’s wrong with those people? You know. THOSE people that always like to cari pasal about everything with everyone. Who likes to dramatize over an ant crawling across the room.
"Someone must have spilled sugar on the floor! Who? You right? Why are you always so careless? You?!"
And then getting everybody annoyed at them.

Those people who CONSCIOUSLY clicks on a link on Youtube of a Vlogger or home video that they know they won’t enjoy… just to end up complaining and insulting. What the hell. If you don’t like to watch what other people create, how other minds’ think… jangan tengok la! You yourself nak tengok and then complain. What’s the point? Do their video trigger any part of your life in a drastic way? Will their video cause you to die in the near future? No. Right? Yes. Maybe it will, though, with this attitude macam got something stuck-up-your-ass.

Another thing comes off a bit more personal. You know those people who like to say "I don’t/didn’t want to make this a big thing" and then turn around and jadi instant hypocrite? Yeah, I can’t stand those people too. They have a way of turning the blame and pointing their finger at you, when really all you did was shut up and did something wrong - slightly wrong - and they end up creating a huge hullabaloo of a problem. Then when you try to defend yourself, they ingat you tengah ‘talk back’. Agree? Honestly, what’s the point of putting themselves in such a position and getting their blood pressure high. What good does it do?

"I don’t like to talk to that guy, he agitates me soo much!".
Well… don’t bloody talk to that dude? If you KNOW you don’t like talking to the person, why tiap2 masa also want to talk to the guy, and then turn around to kutuk him? Newsflash, buddy. It’s not him your making an asshole out of, it’s yourself. Jika ko tak suka menengok muka seorang - jangan tengok la! If you tak suka cam-cam dengan specific group of people - jangan campur la! Why do people always want to mix within people and things, and witness a certain person’s actions which they know they don’t enjoy? Why? Is it therapeutic to not enjoy something and make others & yourself feel like shit when these things can be avoided? We will never know.

"One man’s meat is another man’s poison." Honestly la, the day everybody will actually understand this quote will be the day we’re all pleasantly excused of a lot of unnessecary opinionated conflicts. Especially over things like handbags or bands or people.
- If someone likes something you don’t, you don’t have to call them stupid and unintelligent. You don’t have to insult. You don’t have to offend. Just laugh and say "Oh, I don’t really like that."
- Not everybody thinks like you, and thank god for that?
- Accept other people’s opinions… it builds up your own knowledge too. There’s no harm in listening every once in a while.
- Don’t try to make people agree with you. Stop making people become someone they are not made to be; you. Everybody is an individual. If their originality fails to impress you, stop mixing in with them? Life isn’t a torture chamber unless you make it one.

If everybody was going to end up pleasing you, if everybody was expected to think alike… there wouldn’t be intellectuals. There wouldn’t be groundhopping rebels; there wouldn’t be advance in technology and media. Everybody would still be running around in the stone ages.

Another thing that bugs me is the fact that some people always think everybody is up to hurt/kutuk/gang up on them. Look, wind out of your paranoid little head for once and stop tying yourself in the center of attention all the time. Keep on acting this way, people are just going to stop caring about stepping around you, and just push you off and walk straight on. Agree? I’m not asking these close-minded people to become hermits. I’m just asking these people to move on with the crowd and stop thinking for every second of their life that everything is evolving around just them. There are 6.3 billion people in this world, minimizing and maximising every minute. Acknowledge that fact.